Happy New Year! Wow, there is lots to be said about 2017. I, for one, am not sad to see it go. I’ve never been one to be all about that “new year, new me” motto, but I honestly feel like 2018 is going to be a fresh start.
I’m just going to say it: 2017 was HARD. Probably one of the most challenging years I’ve had thus far. Maybe even harder than surviving PT school. The year started horribly when within 24 hrs of one another, both of my remaining grandparents passed away. I miss them like crazy and constantly think of them and try to make them proud. In many ways, my life felt out of control in 2017. I just couldn’t seem to get everything together. Being a perfectionist, this didn’t sit well with me. I felt like I was constantly behind in everything I was doing and I just couldn’t keep up with all of my responsibilities. My dad always used to tell us growing up that life is a “juggling act.” You have to keep all of the balls in the air and keep all assets of your life balanced. My juggling act usually included trying to keep up with my health, my relationship with God, my relationship with Peyton and my family/friends, my job, and my interests/hobbies. Easier said than done. This year I often felt myself being so caught up in work and everything that accompanied it. I was caught up in the workplace drama and the negativity of my day to day schedule, so much that it consumed me. It was a very toxic place for me mentally and emotionally. This heaviness and negativity weighed me down every day and honestly, it made me drop all of those other balls I was trying to juggle. I always felt on edge when I came home at night and I probably (definitely) took some of that frustration out on Peyton and my family. Sometimes one of my downfalls is that when I get overwhelmed, I tend to isolate myself and withdraw from being present in everything else. Instead of wanting to go out and spend time bettering myself and meeting new people/doing new things, I just wanted to stay home a lot of the time. All of these things contributed to a big, vicious cycle that only went further and further downhill. In all of this, I found comfort in food and I didn’t want to even think about having to exercise, so my health and weight suffered as well. It’s embarrassing to think that I let all of these things get so out of control, but sometimes when you’re absorbed in all of it in the moment, you can’t see what is actually going on to be able to pull yourself out of it.
Phew, I’m glad the negative part is done with. It’s hard writing those things out and accepting them, but luckily life allows us to grow and change. Through all of 2017’s trials, the positive side of everything is that I learned a heck of a lot about myself. Growing up, I was a major pushover. I lived to please people and found all of my self-confidence was fueled by what other people thought about me. I still struggle with seeking acceptance from others, but this year I finally realized that saying about needing to truly love yourself to be happy is right. 2017 taught me to stand up for myself and for other people when things didn’t feel right. I learned that I am stronger than I give myself credit for and I’m not afraid of standing behind my values and ethics when they are challenged. I learned to not engage in drama and to not let negative people totally derail my day. I learned that I have the ability to make an impact on people’s lives and that a simple smile is sometimes all that someone needs to turn their day around. I learned that I am capable of running my own business, no matter how small it is, and capable of channeling my creativity productively. Lastly, I learned that I need to take care of myself (mentally, physically, emotionally) before I can effectively take care of others.
Some of my favorites from 2017:
- Buying our first house
- Becoming a dog mom and bringing Oxford home
- Being a wife to Peyton and doing life together
- Going to California with Peyton and seeing where he grew up (+Disneyland!)
- Trying Barre classes
- Making Thanksgiving dinner for the first time and sharing it with my family
- 2 trips to Atlanta to spend time with Peyton’s family + sharing Christmas with them
- Lots of trips to Disney World (going to both Mickey’s Not So Scary Halloween and Mickey’s Very Merry Christmas Parties)
- Taking Peyton to see Wicked at the Dr. Phillips Center
- Riding out our first major hurricane at some Disney resorts–lots of quality time together after dealing with opposite work schedules 🙂
- Trip to Oxford, MS to see Ole Miss again, stay with the Andersons, and see a football game–go rebs!
- Making a handmade headboard for our new guest room with my parents
- Celebrating the lives of my wonderful Oma + Otta at their memorial service
- Going to Pittsburgh for a weekend trip to see Katie + Brett tie the knot
- Taking Wilton cake decorating beginner classes
- Going on a weekend trip to Baltimore to see Nicole’s senior day softball game + celebrate her graduation
- Going to dad’s change of command ceremony + getting to participate in the shenanigans of his Navy dinner
- Getting tattoos with Nicole in loving memory of all of our grandparents + in my pop-pop’s handwriting
- Starting this blog + my Etsy shop + joining Fabulous Adventures Travel Companyto be a travel agent
- Ringing in the New Year last night with Jonathan + Alyson!
All of 2017’s lessons have shaped me into the person I am now and I feel better suited to tackle 2018 with a refreshed state of mind. I know what I want to accomplish, I know what qualities I want to embody, and I know what is important to me. I have a few secret goals for myself for 2018 (you’ll have to wait and see!), but I also have some I want to share with all of you.
2018 Goals (I hate saying resolutions, so cliche. ha!):
- Start going to church more consistently again–hopefully join some groups at church to meet new people
- Eat better and workout at least 3x/wk–treat my body like it should be treated
- Blog/journal more
- Keep growing my small business + launch a new website for it (with better pictures)
- Finish the half marathon next week that I didn’t train for (without dying)………..
- Try new recipes + use my cookbooks more
- Travel to at least 2 places we’ve never been before
- Decorate the walls of our house to make it feel more like a home
- Use our camera more to document our adventures
- Find a clearer path to fully utilize my passions and aspirations
- Participate in a new activity out of my comfort zone
Whatever your goals are for 2018, I hope you crush them. I hope you continue to chase your dreams wholeheartedly. I hope you love yourself and others well. I hope you make the best of this year and know you are capable of anything.
Until next time, keep on the sunny side.